I just wanna be dead today I don't wanna be alive if it means I have to feel this way Don't put me in a box under the earth That'd cost much more than I was ever worth I just wanna be dead today But tomorrow....tomorrow I'll probably be OK Like a cherry bomb, just having fun I didn't mean to light up this fuse It's way too late to run Resistance was low And temptation was the only thing I could never tell 'no' So I hit the ground convulsing, I was wired as hell I was seeing stars and black holes I was hearing the wails Of atomic ghosts from the other side And I had no hesitation as I crossed that line I was never coming back after that first time. Now sick and poisoned, but somehow alive I was strapped to a bed Hooked to machines to survive In wonder, they all studied me behind one-way glass Quarantined and isolated, messed up real bad As my eyes adjusted slowly there I looked for your face I struggled just to breathe, I tried to call your name And it hit me like a meltdown- how foolish I'd been It's too late now I'll never leave here again I'll spend forever in decontamination

Well I run from temptation, like I ever had a chance Tried to be some kinda saint Ended up as something else Little lower to the ground A little farther from your door Am I even really living? Well, maybe I ain't sure And when these sirens scream at me "It's in my head, it's just the blues" They're gonna have to cut my legs off first Cause I ain't giving them my shoes Not like they'd walk a mile anyway Maybe take a step or two They can fall flat on their face, and struggle, like we all do iiiYEEHAW!!! But if I died eight times, I ain't out of lives This last one just matters so much more And there's some days when I stand tall Some days I get knocked out But I'm getting tired of swinging No chance for the title bout Man, I've never had a chance to shine Never heard a crowd all roar Just this ringing in my ears while I'm picking teeth up off the floor And it's like I'm locked into this mode Of self-destruct or rise above I'm feeling so sick about the way this is going I've lost all the reasons and forgotten all the motives There's poison in my brain That's why I have these fangs I've seen your jagged grins, I know it ain't all that strange Too many sleepless nights If I don't get this right (get this riiiieeeeiiiggght) I'll pack it up, throw it in, show myself to the door Well, I gave up love and security Now all I have is this dead-end dream If I die would anyone remember me For the songs I tried so hard to sing? Is mediocrity all I'll achieve? With these thunderclouds always following me I've been blessed with ambition But cursed with insecurity

Hey, how'd you like to meet up Maybe later tonight? I can make your name rhyme in the world's worst pun That's pretty much my only pick up line And if that's not enough i just don't have time Cause there's a billion fish out there in a poison sea And i'm dying to take a dive Ah but i don't feel nothing when i look in your eyes You don't even care that i'm telling you lies Just modelling the archetypes and trying to get 'em right Don't stop for second, see through this disguise Bored and disaffected, so you'd better swipe right The pink flame's a candle through the lonely nights Ah but i don't feel nothing when i look in your eyes You don't even care that i'm telling you lies With no hesitation we cross that line If we thought for a second, probably change our minds But thinking is for suckers so you'd better swipe right Let pink flames obliterate the lonely nights

It's been a long time coming in I'm gettin' wrecked on the weekend And the money that I have I'll spend I might not have much to show for it An awkward balance of victory and regret I should quit but I can't just yet Cause I've been dreading the damage before I even leave the house Just what do I really know about that girl that I slept with? And what am I gonna do if she ends up pregnant? And how in the hell have I not been arrested? I don't have a reason to explain just why And why should I explain if I'm still getting by And no one has an answer, so let's get lost in the sound Cuz i've been dreading the long fall before I even leave the ground. The nights are longer than they've ever been My short-term memory is broken And the money that I had, I spent I still ain't got nothing to show for it An awkward balance of victory and regret I should quit, but I can't just yet But I've been dreading the fallout before they even drop the bomb And I've been dreading the winter before the summer's even gone Cause what do I really know about that girl that I slept with? And what I'm gonna do if I end up infected? And how in the hell have I not been arrested yet? I don't have a reason to explain just why And why should I explain I just like getting high And no one has an answer, so let's get list in the sound Cause I've been dreading the long fall before I even leave the ground And I doubt things would change at all if I left this town.

I never would have thought, when I took those shoes out of that box That the box would still live in the corner of my closet Holding the memories of our best years And I never will forget I had those shoes on the first night we met When you gave me your number, you said 'don't you lose it' I put it in that box, and I've still got it But flash forward ten years time Everything I kept inside that busted old shoe box back when you were mine Those Polaroid pictures and mixtapes Sweet love letters and heartaches The ring that you gave back, when you said you needed some space. Concert tickets from our first date And that postcard you sent from the Golden State Apartment key that you said to hang onto, just in case And those old shoes may be worn down through the soles But that box can never be replaced When I got that call I took that box and got in the car I drove all night to get to you Though we'd been two years apart You smiled through the pain I smiled through the tears, and we stayed up as late as you could And together we went through Those Polaroid pictures and mixtapes Sweet love letters and heartaches The ring that you took back And said you'd wear it forever, in your grave. Those concert tickets from our first date And that postcard you sent from the Golden State The apartment key that I'll never get to use, but I'll keep it anyway. And though your body may be worn down to your soul I swear to god you'll never be replaced I hope that it brought you joy in your last moments And I hope I helped you to enjoy your short time here And I'll carry your memory wherever I go, in everything I do But this shoebox is all I have Said this shoebox is all I have I have of you./////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

you burn like fire in the coal mines sayin' ditch this town, let's leave tonight cause every vein's run dry, the canaries all died and i tried to save that last look at ya when you drove off in your neighbor's crown victoria and i knew you were gonna be bound for some far off place tomorrow i'll be back underground but somehow if my lungs don't fail my heart don't break i'll find you again no matter what it takes i finally got reason not to let myself fall apart i swear that day, i died inside seen those busted tail lights leave a thousand times in my mind everyday i wonder why i didn't take that ride, kiss this coal mine town goodbye might as well cut the line these four walls are closing in there's fire in the mine again it's the only place I've ever been but now these four walls are closing in